Monday, 30 September 2013

Sharing what's been on my thoughts with you

I just started college a couple of weeks ago and it's been weird getting back in to routine, especially as in the Summer i had so much freedom with my time, i really miss that. I'm loving my timetable though, i have the whole of Monday morning off! *takes a moment to appreciate whoever sorted out my timetable*. I do have a lot more freedom and independence than i did at school though, but i do still miss it.

A couple of days ago i went back to my old school to pick up some old exam stuff and also it was one of my friends birthdays at sixth form; in all honesty i found the experience very weird and very nostalgic. I'm going to be real with you, it was so odd to see what I'd left behind, and it was just strange, everything was the same yet so different, this was when the nostalgia hit. It did make me think a lot about my choices though. I'm really glad with the choice I've made with which college to go to, change is good. It did get me thinking though, I just kind of wish i planned things more in general; I'm a pretty spontaneous "go with the flow" "wing it" "why not" kind of person, and i like that about myself, it's fun, BUT it's not always practical and in general I'd like to plan and think about stuff more and take things more seriously, instead of seeing what just happens.
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I got thinking( i tend to do that a bit) even though there is more freedom in college and probably in work; i don't want a standard life. In all honesty, i'm at college because i don't know what else to do and it's the best safety net, i do enjoy it, but i want to live. I don't know if that makes sense... i suppose everyone's got a different idea of what "living" realllly "living" is. For some people it might be a 9-5 job, I'm not slating that at all! I think it's wonderful and if it's what you want to do then go for it. For me, personally though that's not what gets me excited, i want to do something that will change peoples lives and result in fun, happiness, positivity and appreciation of life on my behalf. Maybe that involves travelling and doing practical things, maybe not. I'm not sure. What i do know is, i want to lead a life i love, and one thing i know for sure, i'm going to be taking a few gap years to find out what i want to do.

What do you think? What do you want to do with your life?

4 comments:

  1. This is so lovely! You have a way with your words gorgeous! Xx

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  2. I love reading these kind of posts :) Thanks for sharing, really like your blog!

    Xo Melane
    Anxiety | Depression | Panic Attacks

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    1. this made me smile :) thankyou so much lovely xx

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